Deviant *ShutteredDreams has 1,204 message centre items ( 871D, 2H, 37M, 13C, 3F, 228J, 46P, 4N )

Jesus, I guess that's what happens when I'm not around for over a month or maybe a couple of them now..
I swear to God the days have passed me by so quickly that I didn't even notice I have neglected this wonderful site, my stupid arts and my wonderful DA friends for ever so long...
I'm so sorry for being away, beloveds
It has been a hell of a busy but satisfying time and I have over 1000 messages as you can see I have pasted above..
So be patient with me getting back to messages and comments
You know I love you all to bits, and I'll reply them all eventually, as I normally do...



I've missed you !












*afterchain - My Guardian Angel
*jdybowski - My Master
*enchanted-black-rose - My Mistress
*bowlingforrainbows - My Muse
*b33lz3bub - My Ever Dear
`insaneone - My Santa
!LosTSuX91 - My Amazing
*orangebutt - My Everything
~wadewood - My BabyBlues
*adonihs - Such a sweet, ideal man
*FrillyKnickerZ - My Newly Wedded Wife
*devildoll - Muh Most Gorgeous Cherry Whore
*larafairie - My Endless Beauty

<sub>Some words she said to me still echo in my head.
Some things we used to share are still haunting me, now she's out of my life and gone with someone else.
I was sitting this morning on a bench near a church we used to go to. As kids. As teenagers. As friends and as enemies, at times. Sometimes it just gets to me... and I can't possibly understand just how I have managed to lose my best friend ever, but I guess that's just the way it goes for me in life.
"Are you happy?" asked Joe, when he came back one day and he was all pleased with himself and his stupid job.
"Sure", there was a nod and then I took my eyes off of him.
I'm happy, but she is still missing in my life, and I don't know when this is all going to end..

There are so many files and papers and assignments I have to give away by next week, but here I am.
Leaving all of those on my desk and sitting here.
Crumbled.
I have no powers for work & school.
Somebody take it away.</sub>












*afterchain - My Guardian Angel
*jdybowski - My Master
*enchanted-black-rose - My Mistress
*bowlingforrainbows - My Muse
*b33lz3bub - My Ever Dear
%insaneone - My Santa
*LosTSuX91 - My Amazing
*orangebutt - My Everything
~wadewood - My BabyBlues
*adonihs - Such a sweet, ideal man
*FrillyKnickerZ - My Newly Wedded Wife
*devildoll - Muh Most Gorgeous Cherry Whore
*larafairie - My Endless Beauty

After such a long time of being away from here and away from, about everything, I come back here with all of my powers reloaded, with so much love to share and so much amazement to spread around.. because you all have posted up such divine deviations while I was away, and I am still trying to keep up with the monsterous amount of messages I have got.
Imagine my happiness and surprise to find out that my subscription has been renewed today by the loveliest, most talented, and adored beauty that could ever be: *tragicmistress
I could never believe my own eyes, but this form of perfectness has bought me a 3 months subscription, which I hope I will use wisely.
My Ever Dear, I could never thank you possibly enough, but I will try to show you my endless gratitude with that pencil portrait of yours and lilly's that I have promised
Thank you, Goddess!!



Another big and warm special hug goes to the eternal *TheSilencing of mine. I adore you and I love you and I promise to answer your long, wonderful note as soon as I can. I would still love to do a collab with you and I appreciate your most touching comments and support


Yo Guys, I'm back in town, and I have come to Rock it Down! stay tuned, you're all going to get some long and appreciative comment from me. I adore you all












*afterchain - My Guardian Angel
*jdybowski - My Master
*enchanted-black-rose - My Mistress
*bowlingforrainbows - My Muse
*b33lz3bub - My Ever Dear
%insaneone - My Santa
*LosTSuX91 - My Amazing
*orangebutt - My Everything
~wadewood - My BabyBlues
*adonihs - Such a sweet, ideal man
*FrillyKnickerZ - My Newly Wedded Wife
*devildoll - Muh Most Gorgeous Cherry Whore
*larafairie - My Endless Beauty

I know I haven't been around here this past week or something like that, but I'm taking some time off of DA. There are some things I need to sort out, there's crazy amounts of times I need to find for dear people in my "real life" and everything is pretty much a mess, but I'm feeling good, and I'm going to solve all of this.
Please forgive me dear friends if I'll be away for this week, or even the one after it. I'm not forgetting any of you guys, I still love you to death and I hope I'll be back online as soon as possible..
Take care babies
I'll miss you lots and shall reply to all of your messages as soon as I'm here again












*afterchain - My Guardian Angel
*jdybowski - My Master
*enchanted-black-rose - My Mistress
*bowlingforrainbows - My Muse
*b33lz3bub - My Ever Dear
`insaneone - My Santa
*LosTSuX91 - My Amazing
*orangebutt - My Everything
~wadewood - My BabyBlues
*adonihs - Such a sweet, ideal man
*FrillyKnickerZ - My Newly Wedded Wife
*devildoll - Muh Most Gorgeous Cherry Whore

<sub>Just a few hours ago, I was on my way back home along with my best girl, driving up the high-way. There's an exit we should take somewhere along the road in order to get home, but I have probably missed that specific one or mistaken it for another, and there I found myself, driving my car, right into a never-ending, dark, long road, that you can't possibly get out of, since it's blocked at both sides and is a one-way road. At first I thought it was no biggie, that we could just pick up the nearest exit again and find our way back to the highway, but the road has kept going on like this for almost 40 minutes and I was starting to get all puzzled and frightened.
There was absolutely no car on that road except for us.
I have never seen it and I have never taken it, even though I got to travel roads around here a lot, but this was just too strange and intimidating.
I started to get all nervous and upset, I didn't know what to do.
I stepped down on the gas pedal, not noticing just how fast I've ridden, until I realized I have passed a few Police Speed-Cameras at about 180 kph.


It was only half an hour later that we could U-Turn and go back to the road that we used to know, and luckily, we got back on the high-way and down to our way home, until the very big van was passing just beside us at something about 220 kph and lost control of the steering wheel.</sub>
IT CRASHED THROUGH THE RIGHT SIDE OF MY CAR.

It's a goddamned miracle that my girl wasn't even scratched or bruised, because she was sitting on the right side of me and this whole part of the car is totally ruined.
As I hit the breaks to stop and turned to the curb I got a little dry bruise on my chest, from my steering wheel.
The car has gone total loss and the other van's front was totally smashed, but no one has gotten injured, luckily.
Until this very hour I'm trying to deal Accident-Report papers and I'm terrified to death.
If that stupid driver would be one inch closer I would be dead now.
It's the most awful experience I've had on the roads, I'm totally shattered.

_{Be safe on the roads kids. I'm not going to ride them again anytime soon.}

-The End-












*afterchain - My Guardian Angel
*jdybowski - My Master
*enchanted-black-rose - My Mistress
*bowlingforrainbows - My Muse
*b33lz3bub - My Ever Dear
`insaneone - Fucks me Slow against the wall
*LosTSuX91 - My Amazing
*orangebutt - My Everything
~wadewood - My BabyBlues
*adonihs - Such a sweet, ideal man
*FrillyKnickerZ - My Newly Wedded Wife